i never knew what i meant to you歌詞

[00:02.84]Dear old friend
[00:06.92]How has everything been
[00:10.94]Do you still have the memories from back then
[00:19.10]Or has time took them from your head
[00:32.08]Why do people leave
[00:33.81]Actually why do i seek relief
[00:35.65]In people who only mistreated me
[00:37.62]Love the sense of dependence and needing me
[00:39.61]I’d give the ones that i love all the blood in my body
[00:41.68]But never be seen as enough
[00:43.42]I used to kick with my clique never trip
[00:45.32]About a ***** shoving smoke in my lungs
[00:46.86]Now they just copy me putting out music
[00:48.74]Instead of pursuing the **** that they love
[00:50.77]They haven't seen all the sleepless nights
[00:52.50]I would stay up or the times i would write as i’d cut
[00:54.72]I still have notebooks with pages and pages
[00:56.89]Of verses soaked all in my blood
[00:58.73]Conversations ii had with myself when no one felt like giving a ****
[01:01.88]Contemplations i had of just giving everything up
[01:04.43]One night i grabbed all my razors
[01:06.05]And sat there in silence while holding a gun
[01:07.72]Thinking it won’t be so silent when everyone hears what i’ve done
[01:10.93]Squeezed the trigger as hard as i could but the bullet was stuck
[01:13.89]Etched 20 lines in my skin fell asleep and left life up to luck
[01:16.66]I’m not scared of the dark anymore i’m in love with it
[01:19.56]Spent so much time in it i became one with it
[01:22.12]I don’t ever wanna see the sun again
[01:23.64]All i want is to be ****ing dead
[01:25.78]Leave me roses and violets inside of my coffin
[01:28.43]A knife and an upsidedown cross with
[01:30.56]Blood dripping off it
[01:31.47]An ounce n some vodka
[01:32.68]Make sure theres a moshpit
[01:33.85]Make sure my mom is
[01:35.25]In the middle getting stomped quick
[01:36.43]Forall the times she left me n my brother unconscious
[01:38.89]High on drugs coming off it
[01:40.14]How has everything been
[01:43.35]Do you still have the memories from back then
[01:50.72]Or has time took them from your head